Discombobulated?

I just got back from a movie about an hour ago.

Tropic Thunder, ever heard of it?

It was... How do I say this...Horrible? Stupid? Lame? Distasteful? Discombobulated? Well however you wish to determine it's being- it was bad.

I mean, seriously, who in the world wants to see a movie with a script consisting of four words, not including "the f word." It had blood and guts, but they looked moderately fake to me. And it had EXTREMELY distasteful and inappropriate "jokes." I laughed possibly twice out of the hour and a half I was there at the "comedy." I accept the fact that I possess an exceedingly dry sense of humor, but... Wow.

My friend I attended with (one of many) apparently deemed it hilarious though. I'm glad he had fun. But if I could drive (seven more months!) I would have left.

Eh.

Movies these days.

A Day in the Life.

There are so many things I wish to do with my life- it's crazy!

My first unrealistic dream is to perform on Broadway.

Secondly, I want to stay in Fort Wayne to become a Lawyer and build a family.

Thirdly, I wish to perform in a dance company.

Fourth choice, become a local choreographer.

The list could go on for hours.

When I think of my second choice, the Lawyer with a family, I can see myself being happier than I do with the first or third choice. One of my inquiries, however, is whether I would be able to commit to community theatre or my dancing: the things I enjoy the most in this world.

A dance choreographer has always been a dream of mine, but as greedy as this may sound, I want money. Not just for me, but so my Children can be happy, and so I won't have to worry about bills and loans.

This is all just too confusing. I wish I could have more than one life. :-/

Oh well.

I'll figure something out.

Sun Burn. :(

So I was working on geometry with my best friend today. And she decided that because it was such a nice day outside, we should sit by the pool and do the geometry. What a splendid idea; or so I thought. The upside- we finished 1/4 of our summer geometry in one day. The downside- I look like a lobster. It sucks man! I don't like it at all. The worst part is that it's only the top part of my arms. It's major tan line; more like burn line. :(

Fourteen will soon be over- Can't wait!

So. I'm turning fifteen in sixteen days. I'm pretty excited. Yet also pretty sad. I don't wanna grow up. :( I remember being sad last year when I turned fourteen cause I was no longer thirteen and I would never have those moments back. It's sad, really. When you're young you want to be a grown-up. Then once we achieve our desired age it's not as wonderful as we hoped. I remember when I was twelve and I wanted to be thirteen so badly. It didn't change anything. I was still just me. It was not at all what it was supposed to be. But seriously, I wish to be a child forever. I know what I'll do! I'll go to Neverland and join Peter and the Lost Boys!! "We're following the leader, the leader, the leader, we're following the leader where ever he may go..."

I remember when I used to play follow the leader... Oh the good days when I had nothing to but frolic and have fun. Now I have so much to do that I have not much time to frolic. :\ Sometimes I feel like playing hide ad seek. But I have no one to play with- my siblings are all older. I really don't think it's very fair that they had me to play with when they were my age, and I have no body. I have to act older than they did or else they'll get mad. I have no one to be a kid with. :( This makes me very sad, very sad indeed.

Why is coming of age like hell? Supposedly it gets worse out of highschool. But those are totally different types of struggles. The ones I deal with now are growing pains. Oh well. We all have to deal so why not do it with a smile I suppose.